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them
it was never unconditional. that’s what poisoned my brain though i caught it a few symptoms short of becoming clinically insane. and now i can’t feel it when people say they love me. i know they do, but only for them. not for me too.
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spoiled
spoiled with convenience and the ability to only accept change under special circumstances. focusing on immediate ramifications and dismissing long-term outcomes. shortsighted and greedy. that’s all we are.
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cruel
pardon me for merging fantasy and reality. i’ve read too much fiction and consumed too much entertainment so i’ve blurred the line. but if i wasn’t supposed to, why would reality be so cruel?
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crashing
i wish you had told me you were struggling with addiction. i know it’s troubling and embarrassing, but i need you to know that i’ll never judge you the way you judge yourself. i understand that sharing your burdens can feel cathartic while also inviting a new kind of pressure. but i’m not here to […]
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uncouth
she’s too quick to judge that’s why i never tell her anything of importance no matter how she pries i mix my lies with a sliver of the truth and though it leaves me feeling uncouth at least she’ll never know what i actually do.
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better
i hope you find the courage to apologize. you’ll feel better once you do. even if i never forgive you.
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perceive
their artic gaze always warmed me up. i must have been colder and secretly seeking companionship. their warm eyes left me feeling lonely like they weren’t actually looking at me. they just found me entertaining.
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rights
power and tradition for those who argue against basic human rights are the only things to live for. humanity was never in question. when a superiority complex stems from not allowing anyone to have the same chances and circumstances you had you’re the inferior one.
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track
forgive me for taking the long route. i needed to wander to find my way back. i needed to chase after what i wanted to realize i hated it. i needed to know that i was wrong. forgive me for worrying you.