a single night sealed my fate. pleading for help, but he never came.
“who are you to be so needy? billions of people are dying to meet me. they’re worth more than you. you know it’s true, so just keep crying in hiding and making yourself bruise.”
like a good little girl, i listened for years. however, when i needed to talk, suddenly, no one knew how to use their ears.
i kept asking for help and he would laugh and point. “if you need me so bad take this poorly rolled joint. it matches you. so depressing it’s actually amusing. maybe if you were someone else, you’d deserve rescuing.”
if i asked “why me?” he’d say “why not?” i didn’t have an answer i simply prayed to rot.
when i finally had the chance that’s the day when help came. “you’re not allowed to leave you have to stay.’
“i hate you, i hate you. why today? I’ve been calling for you since i learned the words to say. I could’ve finally left the life of a stray. why would you do this to me? it hurts me too much to stay”
“sad little girl, i understand you hate me, but i’ve always been here. I'm your source of safety. i’m only allowed to stay by your side. so most days i can only watch you cry. because of how unbearable the pain is inside, your big heart has shrunken in size. but only for yourself and that, i can’t understand why. the world has hurt you yet you keep showing love. i wish you could see you and look into your eyes. i wish we could trade places if only for a day so you could know exactly why you need to stay.”