what is it that i want? i want to be with you. i want to see where this goes. i want this to have every single chance of forever.
you said you wanted the same then you took it all back. it’s obvious you’re afraid, but you left before i could soothe you.
you left before forever because forever doesn’t exist. forever is just a sweet nothing that leaves you lovesick.
and when you’re feeling homesick and you want to return i hope you get a flashback of how your safe haven burned.
you’ll see the match in one hand and gasoline in the other, and the nightmares won’t stop even with your head under the covers.
you won't hate yourself forever because it doesn’t exist, but it’ll be a long, long time before you look yourself in the eye again.